“I don’t agree with everything that comes out of my mouth.”
– Dan Savage, interview with the Daily Pennsylvanian, October 10th, 2006
I don’t like everything I’ve written. Some of it’s fine, but not all of it. Some of it’s “bleh”. So I was thinking of starting a new blog. One where my identity didn’t revolve around being “involuntarily celibate for eight years”. Because why would I want that as my fucking identity? And yet, if I started a new blog, there’s a good chance that somewhere down the line – probably sooner rather than later – I’d write another this-will-embarrass-me-later post. Then I’d have to throw that blog away, and so on and so forth.
So I’m keeping the blog. There are advantages to having a blog that’s already somewhat “fucked up”, so to speak. Just like there are advantages to having a life that’s already somewhat fucked up. Things aren’t so precious, and you don’t have to spend your time making all your nowhere plans for nobody.
And I thought I’d broaden the scope. Talk about more things, try to make it a little more honest. Me, I’m a middle aged man. Early middle age. I graduated from law school a few years ago, but I’ve never found work as a lawyer. I have a shitload of non-dischargeable student loan debt. That’s my situation. (I’ll add here that I’m not going to talk about every damn thing, because some things I don’t want to unpack and I’d just as soon not turn this into a garish confessional – that genre is both cringe inducing and tedious.)
And one more thing. I don’t stand by everything I’ve ever said. I don’t agree with everything that comes out of my mouth, and I’m glad I don’t. Life is so much more interesting when you can change your mind from time to time.